As much as I would love to jump back into writing, something holds me back. And that something is my responsibility as a college student. I believe I should wait till this semester is over till I dive into my next project. The reason for this is that I have a lot of trouble focusing on school whenever I try to start working regularly on a fictional book, or even a nonfiction project.
As a college student, I’ve tried experimenting over the years with writing during a semester. My first semester in college, I wrote about one scene for a story, and that was it. Later, I took a short story class twice for fun because it allowed me to write down story ideas in the form of very short stories.
Another semester, I was stuck in my creativity because of personal stuff going on, and I was given hope for my writing by an unexpected mentor who showed up in my life for that semester.
It’s hard being in a period of waiting. People say to have a steady writing schedule and write every day, but I’ve never been able to do that. Without a schedule, I write anyway–I journal, write down story ideas when they come, and sometimes I try writing a paragraph or concept scene. All this in my periods of waiting. Waiting for what? Waiting for a month, two months, or three months, that I can set aside specifically for focusing on writing a single project. Maybe I want to write one draft in that period of time. Maybe I want to write one draft, wait a few weeks, and then see how much I can edit it with the time I have left.
As much as part of me wishes that I didn’t have to be in college, I believe it is where God has called me and that I am at the exact right college that I need to be at. As much as it is hard for me to learn how to manage my time, energy, and focus on assignments, I am leaning on God a lot and am continually challenged to lean on God more with each semester.
The Prayer Book for Writers was definitely a different case than usual–I felt led to finish work on it during this Spring semester, and so now I’m relying on God to help me finish this semester strong.
Sometimes I look at the prayer book and think, “I probably could have made it better now” but then I have this strong feeling that it is exactly the way it needs to be right now, and that gives me peace.